Vinzi's Life: making it happen.

Monday, May 07, 2007

The past few weeks have been tiring to say the least. I've been having problems forgetting work when I come home; the effect of the daily happenings is finally getting to me.

Tired, weary, I need to find an outlet before it consumes me.

Today I woke extra early, work is creeping in my dreams. Deadlines to meet, standard operating procedures that needs to be replaced, managers that don't even know the meaning, raising voices, nitwits, foul odors and supervisors bragging that English is his second name where I beg to differ on the punctuation, spelling and misuse of adjectives and transitive verbs, make me wonder what the company is doing sending him on training to other countries when he can’t even write a simple email? Pathetic, I know.

I have decided on resigning on no later than March 2008, I might not go back on vacation this July but I will take some time off from work. I need space; I need time for myself and do things I enjoy.

By March of 2008 I'll have a substantial amount saved up and by then, I'll be simply waiting for my papers to process and then move on to a different country, the next phase I've been waiting for ever since I've graduated.

I understand that I can't be involved with the plans I have set for myself. To be committed now will result my family's downfall of financial stability. It's up to me now and I need to remain healthy, I have to be strong.

Yes, the prospect of loving someone is there, someone to talk to, to share my inner most thoughts, to explore our worlds together, to raise a family. I still dream of those but at present, I can't afford it, too many risks and I guard my time zealously.

I admit that my heart is filled with a longing that I can't explain, it feels like there’s more waiting for me out there, more that I need to experience and savor.

Resting my mind at the end of the day, I shall give priority to that and to sweat; I need to sweat to let the toxins out of my body.

Decisions, decisions, I will make my own without my parents behests next year.

Labels: aussie, career, dreams, tired, work

posted by vinz @ 6:18 AM
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