Tuesday, April 25, 2006
A RECOLLECTION
A few years back I was with a friend spending the evening under the stars. We were catching up on each others’ lives; we talked about our dreams and our plans in life. I was staring at her for quite a while when she noticed I wasn’t looking up in the sky anymore, I uttered a compliment as what is natural to me.
“If only men were more like you,” she says. I’ve heard those lines before and clearly it meant that our friendship won’t go any further to a relationship. It was her subtle way of saying she’s not into me or could it be that she simply thinks that I’m sweet to what I said however; her feelings about me are mutual, I mean I can’t say I want to be committed with her. I like her, I’m attracted to her but I also like and am attracted to about a dozen woman that I know.
I didn’t reply to her compliment and instead, I patted her hand and told her for the first time what I’ve been telling close friends years later…
She responded after my monologue that whoever I end up marrying would be lucky to have me and then, she gave me a warm embrace.
I’ve known her for almost a decade now and she’s been a witness to my attempts of wooing someone and only to be turned down in the end. Maybe, that’s why I stopped believing in courtship because any attempt I made, I always get dumped by someone they just met.
I stopped looking for that potential someone; I’ve grown weary of that notion in whenever I meet someone new I think she could be the one. Instead, for the past four years, I’ve gone out and met quite a number of women. Not that I spent the night with each and every one of them, nay. Sure I dated but going out is different from dating, I simply went out and spent time with them; accompanied them shop, ran errands, watch movies they preferred and what have you. These lady friends of mine knew I was grooming myself when I meet the one for me. I grew as much as they did, I was there at their worst and I became their pillar of support.
Maybe the reason why I am showered in abundance of hugs and kisses to my cheeks when I meet with friends is because of the man I have become. They confide in confidence with me their thoughts and woes; I’ve done my best to provide them a lot of point-of-views, perspectives, advice and blatant truths. I’ve always held their best interest; I’ve always treated them with respect and affection.
posted by vinz @ 2:50 AM
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2 Comments:
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At 2:06 AM, vinz said…
i'd just like to add that this article is page 300 in my word document journal.. entry 226 =)
i started writing as a new year resolution back in 2004. =)
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At 3:51 AM, Jasmin said…
a very revealing entry =)
"I stopped looking for that potential someone..."
as they say, just when ur about to give up... it turns up.
if 'looking' isn't working then try 'waiting'
see ya soon
