Monday, June 22, 2009
CLUTTER
And so I thought I didn’t have my aunt and mom’s tendency when it comes to clutter however, based from the past week (couple?) I’ve recently came to terms that I do have that same tendency.
Which is impatience and tendency to be irate becomes most likely.
The secret for me in having more patience is seeing a neat, clean, organized environment and not having that makes me agitated. It’s like there’s something at the back of your head that keeps nagging and you can’t stop it unless you do something about it.
I think I’ve lost my patience and control over my emotions for the past week more than I have for the past 6 months.
I hate clutter, I can stand organized clutter (which I have in my room on occasions) BUT, I also have my days wherein I can’t stand it and organize everything and then, I’m able to breathe clearly again -which I have done several days ago.
I’m also having trouble coming into terms that my younger sibling who is an adult lacks foresight. The reason why we let him manage the household is to be more responsible and yet, he is missing really essential tasks here and there (bringing home responsibilities he can’t financially handle).
Not to mention the lack of ethics when it comes to respect.
It makes me think about how different I am with people, the way I can see the big picture and understand the nitty-gritty details as well. I also understand that how I think is still sharp and given the opportunity I’ll meet an employer’s expectations and more.
The same way I have done on my first job abroad.
I don’t want to go back to Saudi even if the money is there and that I have laid my career’s foundation there. I want to succeed here in my country and be with my Girlfriend.
A couple of more months and she’ll be the only person I’ve been in a relationship with that I can talk to everyday. She has a knack in knowing what to do, how to calm me down and make everything pass otherwise, I would completely lost it. Finally, I have someone who I can really talk to and not make me feel bad about myself.
Just a chance! I won’t disappoint. I want to succeed here and nowhere else.
Labels: determined, frustrated, work
posted by vinz @ 10:06 PM
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