Friday, July 01, 2005
Midnight Sessions
There simply are people you connect with, more so than others, even though you haven’t spent that much time, there’s a deep understanding with one another and the respect and confidence in the other holds no bounds.
I wonder dear friend what your thoughts would have been, have you known that one of the things I’d want to fulfill in life has come to pass. I have her in my life again and you’ll be surprised nonetheless when I introduce you to her. Surprised as well as clarify certain issues why I’ve done so many things in the past with utter patience and diligence despite my lack of patience towards other matters.
If I haven’t moved here, she would have never come back into my life. And yet, even though I have her back, I still am unable to see her since, she’s living there.
I’ve missed the late nights when we’ve conversed endlessly. In those few weeks, we’ve caught up a lot about each other’s lives and I wonder; if I am able to spend a few weeks with her I’d be able to catch up with the years she and I have been apart?
I often think about seeing her again for the first time in years, will I be able to control myself from embracing her? Will a tear trickle from my cheeks as I have her in my arms? My eyes mist on the prospect of it coming to pass.
My days are filled with thoughts of her, I find myself eager to know her, to see how much she has grown in terms of maturity and character.
I vaguely remember seeing her last, it was her sister’s debut and I can’t recall the dress she wore except that it was white. Although, I vividly remember her radiance, her beauty and the feelings I had, marveling how the woman she was blooming into. I was too young then, still wet behind the ears and I still didn’t know who I was.
Seven years later, we’ve graduated college and presently tackling the world for stability we long for…
I’ve heard a brief history how her life went these past seven years and I wish I could’ve been there for her. Though, these past seven years of my life was a tread that I took that I wouldn’t want her to have witnessed. I want her to know me now, the man I have become through your patience and understanding. We often brag about how the foundation of our friendship was through harsh times, harsh times indeed and it truly is a remarkable thing to take pride in. Our friendship holds no bounds, an unconditional love and respect for another.
Do you recall that one night when we talked if we were to have kids, what their names would be? I mentioned her name haven’t I? She means a lot to me, always have been at the back of my mind whenever nostalgia hits me and, this longing I have for her has recently grown more so.
I dreamt of her a few nights ago, she was laughing and we were having a great time. I can’t recall where we were in that dream, it seemed all I cared about was giving her my full attention, the world around us didn’t matter, it seemed so real and when I woke that morning, I was a bit dismayed that it was all a dream. Though, the thought of seeing her again keeps me going, I look forward to each passing day now, and I will do what I can to be a part of her daily life, with whatever means I can.
I honestly don’t know what will happen in the months to come. Or for that matter, the future that lies between she and I. Though, that won’t stop me from praying and wishing that everything will pan out in the end. I have her back, and I can’t emphasize enough how important she is to me. The seal that has been keeping my feelings for her has finally been broken and truthfully, despite the history that we’ve shared, I can’t rationalize why she means the world to me, there simply are things in life that are beyond explanation and comprehension.
posted by vinz @ 8:24 AM
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