Sunday, March 05, 2006
BURNT AND SPENT
I don’t feel so good, it’s been a busy-busy few weeks and I haven’t had ample rest. It’s my fault as well, pushing myself too much though; I have to say that I’ve saved quite plenty. I’m still not up to meeting friends socially.
As soon as everything is settled which was hopefully promised to me to be finished after several days, my current routine would abruptly change all the more. I still have a lot to finish and it is holding me back, I’m not getting any younger and because of that I find myself driven all the more, my deadline is inching closer; two more years to go.
I don’t feel good, both physically and mentally. Maybe a good night’s rest is all I need? Maybe I still need to be detached from everyone? So that when I take my vacation I won’t be overwhelmed with the people I socialize with. I’m really a private person deep down, and often enough I prefer spending my time alone. I’m just tired, tired of the monotony I’m living in however, I’d prefer having this than the latter.
I haven’t given much thought in writing my sonnets though I do have a pattern in mind; I’ll be blending my sonnet with binary codes this time however, I still trying to decide who or what will be my source of inspiration for the next one.
Companionship looms in the shadows and I’m keeping it at bay. Not yet, I say to myself, after a year probably I can delve into its waters once again however, as of late, I can’t. I wonder what measures I will undertake to repress these feelings.
I must say that I am looking forward to seeing a LOT of women when I get back *chuckles*. AND I really need to shop for clothes, I know I’ll be buying jackets since; I’ve grown accustomed to wearing one. I won’t feel comfortable without wearing one even if it’s hot. I’ve been training my body to control my temperature; I just hope it works when I get back.
Anyhow, less than 20 minutes to go before I leave work, another day has passed and closer to getting what I want. I wish everything that I’ve planned for my vacation would push through.
posted by vinz @ 10:15 AM
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2 Comments:
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At 3:26 AM, Yen Prieto said…
hey.. its been a while since i last visited ur site.. just passing by.. take care..
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At 2:32 PM, vinz said…
thanks for dropping by :D
