Thursday, February 16, 2006
SWING-SWING-MOODY
I find myself not in the mood to do anything, no words that may elicit affection or anything seems to be flowing from my lips today. I suppose, I’m just tired from everything, it’s been a year already, my promise and New Year Resolution fulfilled.
What have I learned in a year I wonder? Still the same feelings of accomplishing something insubstantial come to me. I still hunger and I remain impatient. I expect too much from myself and yet a voice in me states to keep uttering what I mean to accomplish and believe in myself.
I want sleep to come to me so I can mend the wounds that lay within me. Solitary will provide me the opportunity to rest and replenish what I’ve used.
Just a few more hours, I should sleep early tonight but I’m also craving for this soup served in a Chinese restaurant. I called my mom already and said we should eat dinner there tonight.
Interesting enough a friend has kept me sane all morning and I’m marveling at her patience at the moment.
I’m now thinking about my next volume for the mini series. I’ve written some of it already but I’m still not quite sure how the story will progress. I might scratch what I’ve written so far and rewrite it again. I understand that I have to plot the story before I delve into it any further if I want it to eventually become a novel.
I also felt like changing my background image and I saw this avatar from someone, I asked for the photo, inverted it and then added a little bit of snippets here and there hence, my new background image. However, I had it only published in the index of my blog.
Dear God, please have everything settled so I can take my leave and be with them soon. Let them see me once more and have them take pride of me. Have me spend my days with them once again so that we may strengthen our bonds and evoke memories that we’ll think fondly off. I’ve reached my limit months ago and sheer Will is what keeps me sane and sound.
I keep thinking of this scene in my mind. Its night and I’m listening to this song as I find someone’s body against mine. We both were simply looking to the sky and I couldn’t help but take in your scent. Your warmth provides me comfort and I take every detail into memory, something to think fondly off, a moment in which everything was perfect between us.
The voices in my mind seem to have died down. The music I’m listening to eases the burden I carry, soothes the burning pain I carry. The voices sing to the lyrics of the song and my heart wells to a comforting timbre, resonating peace within my soul.
posted by vinz @ 6:27 AM
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