Vinzi's Life: making it happen.

Friday, May 09, 2008

Lately I've been noticing friends I've known for years who've been in really long relationships breaking up. I get to hear stories of what they’ve been up to, of sleeping with other women paid or otherwise. I mean, these are guys who I thought will never cheat but I guess; things do change.

They all have their different reasons some of which I've seen with a sibling. Being together since the beginning of their college lives and surviving college but then realizing how different they are from each other and the need to grow apart of themselves and also there is that notion of men wanting to explore before settling down.

I've been there, I've tasted what it was like to explore, to identify and understand a part of myself in those aspects and hence, the three month limit pattern I saw in me. There's always been a grace period and upon reaching three months and I am then unable to cope in that relationship, I get bored once the three months arrive or that I find some quality or trait of hers that I couldn’t stand. Or that I'm not even able to utter words of affection any longer.

I'm a hard man to please one of them said as I closed my doors at her.

I even began to wonder if I'll ever be able to feel anything or if I could mask it and keep up the act and eventually might even feel something. My 2nd and 3rd previous relationships were testimonies to that.

Again, I'll undergo another transformation. A change in lifestyle is underway, commitments made that I will keep. Discipline is essential and I only have myself for motivation.

Things do change... it's been eight months and my feelings remain the same if not, has grown more.

Labels: understanding me

posted by vinz @ 9:46 PM
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1 Comments:

At 2:02 PM, Katia said…

I've written something on cheating a few posts back; the same with you, i've been hearing stories of breakups and cheating,, it's tough :( and im scared :(